21:52, Thursday, May. 05, 2016
I wish I were able to follow through on things that I want.
If I don't end up following through on them does it mean I didn't want it enough in the first place, or that I just didn't have enough resolve? Or are they the same? Was I actually feeling neutral about it or did I just chicken out?
I always think to myself that the logical explanation is the former but I think I might just be in denial and it's actually the latter.
Hope I'm still doing the right thing.
Also, I need to study more/put more effort into my studies. As always. But also as always, I literally cannot give a fuck.