12:01, Sunday, Dec. 06, 2015
So there's the path, right. And when you're on the path, it feels good, secure, stable, a sure thing. But for some reason, whenever I finally get on the path, the first thing I want to do is jump off. It's a constant battle between this fine line between who knows what and I don't know.
Some part of it is because I know it can get comfortable. And the thing with comfortable things is that I know I'm always seeking it, and I know I fall into a trap where I just stay there and never leave. At the same time, I know I have to get out, jump into the deep end, climb through the shitpile and make it out on my own. Because when I do, there's so much more accomplishment in it.
I don't know if this is for me.