7:16 PM, Thursday, Sept. 24, 2009
Akito: So Eve how was your day?
Eve: Awesomeness. Stuff English poetry and commerce essay. It wasn't even an essay.
Akito: Don't worry I betcha you'll fluke pass it ^^
Eve: Thanks Akito
Akito: Because if you didn't, you know what will happen... ++
Eve: *gulp*
Why do I catch the late train?
Because I'd rather sit alone on the ground and watch over my NSB crew than sit alone on a chair next to year 9s.
Why do I hate Amanda temporarily at times?
Because she's so hypocritical and social climber despite her real-ness =_=
Why can't I talk to guys normally?
Because I'm weird like that. Gargh. No experience what so ever, that is the problem. Sucks shit. I think I'd rather (try) talk to some awkward turtle like Trevor than someone like Matt So, even though I'm sure he'll actually keep a conversation going. It's just weird. I feel lower than them. Not cool.
Why is my skirt so short?
Because I'm slutty like that. Gargh. Sounds bad, I know. No, it's kinda like I don't have any illusion, so I'll just make do with showing off my awesome legs instead. And its the feel of being lower than someone again.
Why do I think I act differently around white people in my suburb?
Because I think I'll be able to try to be a new Eve. An awesome confident Eve. They don't know me as the social loser I am usually, so I can experiment my way through them. I hope that happens when it actually happens though.
Why am I such a social loser?
One part fear of socialising. One part fear of being disliked. One part fear of things getting awkward anyway. One part fear because I'm definitely not a peoplestranger person. One part pride of socialising like someone who needs friends. Even though I do.
Why aren't I studying for exams?
'Coz I'm lazy shit. Gargh. Fuck histories. Also, one part manga reading ^^