12:44 p.m., 08/09/2007
i know like, LONG LONG LONG time no see. i've been meaning to get on diaryland for a while. i just checked. xlittletreex last updated 35 days ago. how freakin sad.
lets see now.
school is a bludge which is really sad. maybe because ximia is the cause. I reckon sandra is way funny and so is tiffany. jaya schemes. i reckon they're much better friends but you know, i don't want to be stuck down in the low social status zone. its sad.
ximia is so annoying. when she talks to me, she talks about 4 and missing him. god i wanna kill her. she aint seriously the best person, always looking out for people's bad points. i reckon she laughs at me behind my back. oh well, i do too.
she talks too much too. i really want to catch up in maths, like you know, take ALL of mr hulme's notes. but ximia never takes them anymore and she's always talking. its fine if i go inbetween pim and someone else. see, i'm a really dependant person. i need someone to race/compete/work with to succeed and move on. pim bludges school more than i do. the saddest thing is, she still gets better marks than me.
i hate it.
when i'm around her now, i'm always saying mean stuff to her face. not on purpose. its just that i hate it when people are bitching about others saying their ugly and have pimples and shit like that and its like, look who's talking. i hate ignorance. arrogance is ok. ignorance is too i guess. but not when they never realize what they've done wrong.
its like, she says she missed four. WHEN have they actually had a decent conversation face to face? never. WHEN will she realize that he DOES NOT like her and CLEARLY wrote it via email. WHEN will she get over him? she pisses me off.
i remember early this year when i was in the lynn group. she said she didn't like ximia. i can see why. i remember her saying that on ximia's bebo, she wrote, "i want cool friends". she can make friends with anyone she want so she can stop dissing the people who call her a friend.
i'm watching things from behind. ximia notices EVERYTHING about people. she immediately sees sophie's bad teeth and i didn't even KNOW about it til she told me. she uses that skill so badly.
i'm trying to be her. she goes, "oh mish is so smart and pretty and all." excuse me. who gives a damn. ok maybe i do kinda. but why be jealous over something you freakin gotta accept?
she's smart enough. she's ok looking enough. (her fringe is terrible though and so is her hair. and she cuts it herself no wonder) she enjoys tutoring like freaking amanda. and she thinks her life is freakin shit and complains abuot missing four and hating 11. like i can do anything about it. and if you freakin hate 11, why are you so interested about how many text messages he's sent you?
and who freakin looks at boys and thinks they're way hot and cool and shit? it makes me even hate them more now.
she got serious problems. but i dont think she'll really understand if i tell her like joanna. she's just her. i don't think she'll ever change.
just gotta accept that eve.
its kinda weird how i'm meaner kinda to all my friends compared to complete strangers. maybe because to people i know, i'm just honest. like amanda. she's so freakin annoying but you just gotta love her. i feel really bad now that i wrote GET A LIFE in caps in her yr12 letter...
oh yeah and watch zero no tsukaima sometime. its like shakugan no shana ^^